Liam Payne's sister shares heartbreaking post
"Each morning on waking, I feel like I am plunged underwater, gasping for air that never comes to relieve me."
Liam Payne's sister Ruth Gibbins has shared a heartbreaking tribute six months after his death.
The former One Direction star died in October last year after falling from a hotel balcony in Argentina.
Five people were arrested in connection with his death. However, the charges were dropped against three suspects.
The two remaining suspects face drug charges after being accused of supplying the 31-year-old singer with cocaine.
The judge in the case said it was possible that Payne, who was intoxicated at the time, mistook the balcony in his room for an exit when he fell to his death from the third floor.
His sister says living without him has been difficult. "My head is still screaming for you," she wrote.
"Living without you is impossible, so for now, I exist. I'm learning to laugh or smile in the right places, but mate, it's exhausting when all I want to do is speak to you.
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Despite her heartache, she says she has allowed herself to feel love and not just loss.
"I can really smile at memories of us, like last year when we were doubled over laughing at us trying to make something we'd seen on YouTube, but memories are always tinged with sadness at how unfair it is we can't make new ones," she wrote.
Paybe gained fame as a member of the British boy band One Direction. At the time of his death, the group, which includes Zayn Malik, Harry Styles, Niall Horan, and Louis Tomlinson, was all pursuing solo careers.
They took an indefinite hiatus in 2016.
Despite his worldwide fame and constant travelling, Paybe remained close to his family. Gibbins says she still can't process what happened.
"I can sometimes hear you laughing at me walking around like Whoopi Goldberg in 'Ghost', looking for you everywhere I go. I see you though, you're always coming through in different ways to put me back on the right path.
"I miss you loudly, quietly and in all the moments in between. Love you so much more than these words or my tears are capable of expressing but I know you know this," she added.
"For now, I'll meet you in my dreams."
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